Piktochart.

To Babble.
I've been meaning to blog for a while now, but I just couldn't find the time to. The past few weeks were really crazy times, and it's amazing to look back and realize that it hasn't even been half of the semester yet. I honestly could not remember when was the last time I felt like, Phew! I can finally take a breather! Finally, yesterday I finished an assignment that was due today, and I felt such relief. Even then, I could say that I did not give my all for my final year project - it was left unfinished because I could not bear squeezing out another word out anymore. My brain capacity must have shrunk from all the heavy thinking I have been doing, or maybe it expanded? Hahaha. Seriously, I was at my limit of writing creatively. Even this post sounds crappy because I'm just writing whatever comes to my head right now.

There's still a lot on my plate, but I guess I could take a little break right now. I have utterly zero mood  to do any academic work right now, I was even trying to force myself to do one of the assignments for one or two hours earlier, but guess what? I didn't manage to even come up with one sentence. At times, you think you're superwoman, you can do everything in a disciplined manner; constantly and without stopping. But sometimes, we need to realize that we are not machines, we are not meant to work, work, work without stopping. We have emotional and social needs that need to be attended to too. I could tell you that I was on the verge of breaking, especially when I had that feud with my boyfriend, but yeah, I made it without breaking anybody's hearts (I hope). Though I did snap at a few of my friends when I felt on the edge. Sorry, guys.

Riiiighttt, back to the whole point of this post, I have some pretty exciting news that I was ecstatic to share two weeks ago. Drumroll please? Jeng jeng jeng! I got my internship at Piktochart! Weeeeehooooooooooooo! Finally this whole internship thing is settled, all that's left is just some formalities and I'm all set to start my internship! :D The whole application-test-interview process lasted for about two weeks, and it was in the midst of all my assignments and final year project, and yeah that's one of the reasons why I was so worn out too. But it's all worth it when I got accepted into their internship programme and right now I'm so excited to start! Although it wasn't exactly what I was looking for, but it's a totally new field for me to indulge in and I'm already excited as to how much exposure I'll be getting. Check them out if you haven't already heard of them! Click here, it's free to use. =)


I've really gotta thank everyone around me - my family, my boyfriend, my friends - for supporting me at such stressful times. Initially, I was not too sure if I was capable enough for this internship because it's a UX Researcher intern, and I've never even heard about User Experience (UX) before. My boyfriend pushed me to apply, and to go through with the test, so yeah. I remember beaming with pride when my parents congratulated me and told me how proud they were. =) Nothing beats family love. Not forgetting my brother's FTS when he found out how much my internship pay was. Also, my boyfriend's unsupportive speech about how now I have to pay for everything he spends. Ahahah. Such love.

Why do I jog?

To Babble.
The past few days had been really taxing on me. I had a lot of tasks at hand and even though I was really, really as productive as my mind allowed, I still am not ticking off my tasks because these tasks need a lot of time and comprehension to complete. Ugh, I was feeling too over productive to the point that I just wanna give up some of it, like, you can't have the best of both worlds right? Sigh, but my stupid consciousness at the back of my mind nagged at me constantly, 

Are you sure you won't regret this decision? 

Seriously, this is what I ask myself all the time when I am at crossroads. It's the perfect question for me to decide on anything, and I am constantly striving to be better, to learn new things. Today I'd like to share on why I choose to jog whenever I have the time. Of course, sometimes my lazy worms get the best of me, but since I did jog today, I'd like to share on how it made me feel. This may also be my first ever "lists" post, someone had once told me that people like to read lists and my posts are always really messy and disorganized, so this may actually make it look organized for once.

1. It clears my head.

At times like this, it really helps me to clear my head. Just earlier today I was seated at the study table for the whole day typing away and cracking my head to come up with something to write. It gave me a splitting headache and I felt so miserable that I still had so much work to do. Getting out for a jog just gave me the break I needed, and I needed something different, not even watching TV shows could cheer me up. After the jog I felt really good that I look forward to continuing my work. It's a miracle, isn't it?

2. It allows me to appreciate the little things I overlook everyday.

Without noticing, there is this whole world around us that we always overlook because we were either too busy tapping away on our phones or taking for granted our mundane everyday life. Let me tell you, where I am, Kota Samarahan, Sarawak, it has most beautiful skies ever - those that you only really see in movies. There are no high rise buildings, so the scenery is simply breathtaking and I am grateful for being here everyday.

3. It helps me focus.

Actually, I think this is an elaboration on my first point, but honestly, I'm running out of things to write. The rhythmic tap, tap, tap, of my sneakers just helps me focus and also my concentration on breathing helps me to focus on completing my run, and not let my mind run wild or overthink my worries. It's really just one of the best feelings ever, being able to focus on one thing instead of thinking about everything else. 

 4. It helps me to feel and be healthier.

Okay, I'm not typically those girls that go on diet or restrain from eating because I don't really gain much weight and stuff. So the reason for my jogs are really so that I am healthier. I have the worst stamina, because being the nerd I am for my entire life, I don't do much sports. I think gaining some stamina at this point of my life would be really good because then I wouldn't tire so easily and I'm able to do more, see more things if I travel and stuff. :D


Look around.

To Babble.
It's kinda the raining season here in Kuching, Sarawak. I love the fact that fluffy clouds are my shade when I cycle home from uni, but I also dislike the fact that when it rains really heavily, I'm really helpless because I have no car here. I just spent about half an hour just now walking back in really heavy rain, like literally those cats and dogs are falling kind. I just dinner with my housemates and it was a 10-minute walk back home. Halfway through our meal, it started pouring really heavily, but I wasn't worried at all, because I wasn't alone, and it's just rain. How much damage can getting soaked do to me, really?

Sometimes in life, there needs to be something significant, life-changing or bombastic to be memorable, but I think we need to step out of that whole ideal of how we need something drastic to feel alive. I've always been that kind of person, actually. Always needing something really exciting or something different to remember, to make me feel whole. I don't know how or when this started, but I've been this way for a while now. And this kind of attitude won't get me far, especially when I'm in a long-distanced 6-year long relationship. Of course, there is always this tick-the-box livelihood that symbolizes or accomplishments in life, but that shouldn't be so. It isn't fair for anyone at all. What we really need is to look at the simplest things in life and appreciate what we have.

"Look around you. In a year, nothing would be the same."

So anyway, back to how I was walking home from dinner, there were 4 of us, holding on to our umbrellas for our dear lives, but even though each of us had a personal umbrella, we were still drenched wait because it was too windy. The streets drowned in a layer of water while the drains threatened to overflow. My feet were in the water the whole way through as we waded through the streets, singing "It's Raining Men". And in that moment, I looked at the faces of my friends, and I know that I will remember this forever. It sounds so cliche, but it is true. When I leave this place, I want to remember everything I experienced here; the people I meet, the places I've been, the hardships I've faced, it all made me who I am today. 

Shopping.

To Babble.
Hey guys! Chinese New Year is just around the corner, and let's face it, all of us are busy shopping like crazyyyyyyy. Everywhere I go in Penang, it's traffic jam, and every mall I go, it's crazy packed. Sales are everywhere and people are snatching everything they lay their hands on, but guess what? Not me. :P I don't know why's that, but I can't seem to find anything I like or suitable for me. It's not like there's no sizes or something, although yes, sometimes I'm a bit too small for the clothes in store, but I'm actually an average size. 


That's not the point, anyway, it's just that, I feel like as I grow up - I'm twenty-two this year - I start to look at things on their practical side. As I study in a public university, there's many things that I can't wear - shorts, short skirts, singlets, low cut tops or whatever (not that I have anything to show :P) - so there is a great tendency for me to think, is this practical for me to wear in university? And I tend to LOVEEEE sweaters - even though I cycle to class every day and I live in oh-so-hot MALAYSIA - I still love sweaters. Being a creature of habit, I go for basic stuffs, sweaters, plain tees, plain trousers, plain EVERYTHING. It's starting to get really boring and my friends always encourage me to try something new. But I've always only liked plain things, or polka dots and stripes. That's just me. That's who I am. So for this Chinese New Year, I went to KL with my boyfriend, just to shop. I didn't get anything much. I literally just got.. 3 pieces of clothing. And I shopped for 3 days. 

Sigh, I was really sad, cuz I'm not those girls that shop all year round, I really only shop around this time of the year, so.. When I came back to Penang, I just shopped online. Basically, most of my new year things I bought this year, it's through the Internet, and let me tell you this Mr. Internet, 

I LOVE YOU!!!!

Thank you for creating this wonderful shopping experience for me. But I think I've shopped too much online, I should really stop soon hahahahaha. Getting broke. XD

Happy New Year! :D

To Babble.
What's up peeps? :D I know it's a little late for this post, but.. HAPPY NEW YEAR!! Okay, seriously, it's always been at the back of my mind that I SHOULD UPDATE MY BLOGGGGG!! but I haven't gotten down to it, cuz frankly, my blog has been dead for a long time, and I know that eventually I'm going to get too busy to do anything about it. SIGHHH. But alright, what the heck, I've been itching to write for ages and.. here I am! HAPPY??!?! :D Nobody reads this anyway. :P It's just my journal. :D 

Welcome, welcome, 2015! Looking forward to this new year, cuz frankly, 2014 wasn't awesome. It was one of my toughest years ever, and I'm glad I survived it, and I'm still here. So, bring it ON 2015! :P Just to share a little of my new year's resolution, which I have undoubtedly haven't put it any effort to achieve my resolutions. Basically, it's just three things - 

WORLDVIEW, EXERCISE, COMPASSION.

It may look easy, it may sound easy, but it is not easy for me!! AAAAHHHHH. Let's all work towards a better version of ourselves this year. =)

Friends.

To Babble.
In our life, there are ups and downs. Everyday, we meet different people. By fate, some of them become our friends no matter if it's through a smile, a friendly gesture or even from a fight. If it's meant to be, it will be. There are so many relationships; lovers, friends, ex-lovers, crushes, husbands, families, and you could never truly understand how all these will workout perfectly as God has planned for us. As I go into this young adult phase, these kind of relationships have become clearer to me. It's not an easy task. But I'd like to keep everything as simple as I can. High school is where you build this foundation of trust into adulthood. It's really funny how things turn out. 

Strangers becoming best friends and best friends becoming strangers. 

But all that really matters is that you hold on tightly to your close circle of friends and raid through the obstacles of life. :) A very last minute plan, seriously, Caryn just wants some sun because she's becoming a pale vampire soon. I'm dark enough as it is, but okay, I just follow through. Really relaxing and full of laughter beach trip. =)




Maleficent

To Babble.
Here it is! The prettiest villain ever created. It was really a good movie. Perfect for those Disney fans out there. Ahem, SPOILER ALERT k! Angelina Jolie as Sleeping Beauty's Maleficent. :D She had green speckled with blue eyes, high cheekbones, elven ears and surreal porcelain skin that just perfected her whole look. During her make up process, they were really trying their best to make her look evil, because somehow she's always turning out to be too pretty. XD Adorned in her black suit, her two evil horns completed her fairy look. Anyway, I enjoyed the movie more than I thought I would. =)

I'm back.

To Babble.

Hello, peeps. Guess who's back? :D I don't know what drove me to resurrect my blog again, but I guess I miss writing a lot and it's one of my passions in life. Plus, I'm driven by the global issues that I've studied in class and I figured I'd like to share what I know with people. Though, I know nobody would really stumble upon my blog what with the change of URL and my last post is... one year ago! Weeee. :P Note the change in layout, of course, I stole it. Credits to whoever-that-guy is. But, I love it a lot. So thank you! Hope I'd be updating this often enough. =) Anyhow, there's still many things I'd like to add to my blog, so, wait up!

For the love of writing, :)

results.

To Babble.



This has got to be one of the lowest moments in my life, not getting what I expect to get. My results are actually not bad, it's just not good enough. Lol, yeah, I guess I push myself too much sometimes. I just keep thinking, damn, I've spent almost two years studying for this exam, and all I could do was this? REALLY? Is that all I've got? I can't say that I could've done MUCH better if I actually put all my effort in it, it's just that I know I did study, but one time or other, I did give up many many times cuz there were so much to study and so little time to spare. Admission to private unis should be no problem, most of them only require a 2.5 CGPA, which I definitely exceeded! :P

feels good.

To Babble.
If y'all don't know me, I'm an extremely lazy person. -.- don't get me wrong, I like work. But I just don't like doing it. Sounds funny, but I like it when I keep myself busy and just keep doing something to keep me occupied, but I don't like HARD WORK. XD What don't I like, you ask? Maybe like using my brain. -.- lol, I hate it when I bump into hard questions. I'll just end up copying the answers cuz im too lazy to think. Same goes for exercising, I haven't sweat it out for months. -.- but today, o miracle day, I went out for a jog and even exercised. :D it felt damn good.

Olympics.

To Babble.
This year's Olympic games are in LONDON. :D and eventhough I don't play sports, I still like to watch it to get in the fun! :D It is pretty exciting after all. And i'm rooting for Malaysia!! but.. of course it's tough on Malaysia with all the Godly talents around the world. XD As a Malaysian, I'm proud of all the athletes especially Lee Chong Wei and Pandalela for doing such a great job! and all of the other athletes that tried their best and went in to finals and everything, thanks alot for trying. =) Here are Google Doodles  that I've collected along the Olympic period. Enjoy! =)

fasting.

To Babble.

whose brilliant idea is it that we FAST for about almost a month from FACEBOOK, TWITTER & INSTAGRAM? yours truly. =) lol. shit, it's wayyyy easier said than done since our lives are pretty much revolved around those things. only on Sundays we are allowed to access all these social media stuff. =/ but if we succeed, we'll have PLENTY of time in our hands to finally study. her finals are near, and my trials are near. so both of us need that extra boost to help us go through this now. 
*crossed fingers* please let us make it. =)

leechongwei

To Babble.

A boy who has always had it in his blood. Spent more time at the badminton court then he did home. Now, a humble man that brings glory to Malaysia. Every time he plays, it gleamed in his eyes and God seem to smile upon him. Never arrogant, never boasting and has truly won not only every Malaysian's heart, but also the world's. His smashes, netplay, speed, strategy, tactic, not many could match up to him. Today, we see him, heads down, spirit broken, but still trying to hold his head up high while standing tall at the podium. Breaks our heart seeing him that way. There is no reason for you to apologize, because you have did  your best. Even though you've missed  your chance yet again, it was the best game ever, and every single one of us is proud of you. #thankyouleechongwei =)

Sunday.

To Babble.

What do people actually do on Sundays?
For me, it's an opportunity to breathe and relax as there usually is nothing on Sundays. Finally, I can catch up on my studies, or laze around to do nothing but mainly i just wanna rest. Today, however, I was completely distracted because my monkey mind wouldn't rest. Numbers dance around in my eyes because they've abandoned me some time ago. Carbon atoms and benzene rings make funny shapes to sneer and jeer at me because  they know I can't concentrate. I'm buried deep in guilt but no matter what I do, I can't concentrate. To make matters worse, I'm here, blogging.

never enough.

To Babble.
I've gotten all the stuff that I really really want, like..
 that Esprit blouse that jay sern got me! <3
 Purse, not exactly the one i want.. n this one is a bit weird, but my mum likes it.. so.. ok lorrrrrr. And straw bag, which i reallyyyy likeeee.
free iPod. :O
 School bag. :D
 RED converse!!! <3
 my beauuutiful wedges. <33333
and of course, my awesome camera!! :D

but still, it's never really enough, you know.. like i still want..
 a big, but not too big pencil case.. -.- 
and a small sling bag! :O ughhh i hate being a girl. -.- no matter what you get, it's still never enough. haihhh....

holidays.

To Babble.
What I did during the holidays? heheh. Here's some of  the things I did.
 Catch bugs.
 Girls' outing and sleepover.
 Caryn's birthday party.
 Christmas party.
 BBQ & Steamboat dinner.

It looks like a whole load of fun, yeah? haha, wait till you see the no life part of my holidays. :P When I'm not out with friends or playing badminton or shopping or whatever, I'm just rotting at home. I sleep at 1 or 2 am, wakes up at 12 pm, eat lunch and watched these for the whole day -.- : 
 Pretty Little Liars.



Gossip Girl. 

All in all, I RESTED too well for the holidays, never even 'touched' my books. Now, I'm realising that.. my brain is empty. Haih, back to school. gotta continue the hectic life.
And I cut my hair! :D On 2nd of January. weeeeeeeeeehooooooooo.

immortals.

To Babble.
We went to watch Immortals on 11.11.11. I was really excited about it because it's about Greek Gods and stuff, so I thought it was going to be really cool. But... turns out, when the movie ended, I don't know what to say. Is it good? Is it bad? When you can't decide, it means the movie is bad. Lol. I don't know, some people claimed that it is an awesome movie. But to me, it's just disappointing. Maybe I expected too much, but the whole movie to me, was just weird. I just looked up Theseus, the hero of Immortals, but the whole story was.. different. T_____T Theseus is Poseidon's son. He's supposed to lift some rock to claim his father's tokens, and find his father to claim his birthright. On his journey, he encountered six entrances to the Underworld. And.. in this movie, none of that happened. Except maybe Theseus in the movie slaughtered a weird-human-like minotaur. They didn't even show that Theseus is Poseidon's son, I thought he was supposed to be Zeus' son, but in this movie, he's a bastard. That's all they say.
The headgears in this movie are just weird. Epic weirdness. -.- This bad guy here, he looks like Spongebob Squarepants' Mr Krabby. o.o
                       
Athena, the goddess of wisdom, she looks like some dumb blonde, and she.. kinda acts like one, being the spoilt child of Zeus. Zeus is SO biased. He only loved Athena, and didn't care about his other sons or brothers. At first, I thought she was Hera or something, because the way they two conversed, they sound like lovers. 
 This is the virgin Oracle. Which in the end.. gave up her virginity and sight for Theseus.

 The Gods of Olympus, only 5 of them. Fighting weird looking Titans. WEIRD! AAAAAHHHH. They all look like models doing nothing just sitting around in heaven most of the time. :/ SADS!


And we are all stories, in the end.