heeee. so today I went over to Caryn's before tuition, since there's nothing to do at home anyways. I am rotting and decaying here! I was itching to get OUTDOORS and play with my cameraaaaa~~~ weeee ^^

oooooh, did I mention i don't know how to cycle? -.- yes, caryn was teaching me. thank you very much, sifu for encouraging me. XD I fell once going uphill. T-T okieee. Flood of pictures now. weeee~ here we go!

Bambee =D so susah to take her pic. haiyo!

bambeee!! look at me pleaseeee? I just want a picture. =(

awwww. so natural. hehe. =D

caryn caryn caryn~~! =D

aisehhh, photographer at work. hehe. =P

flowerssss~ ♥

goshh, i miss taking close up pictures.

cool looking lampost. XD

entre to a whole new world.... o.o

ah, me likey this picture! =D

Pic by : Deviantart

Yay! New skin, finally! ^^
weeeeeeee. ♥

Okay, another flood of vain pictures. But there is purpose in it this time okay? Caryn asked me to do it!!! =P yes, this is due to boredom and a little bit of self-obssesiveness. Gosh, i'm such a cam-whore. -.- But!! On the bright side, I haven't cam-whored since.... months ago. =D I think the freaky row of random vaining pictures was the last time i took a pic of myself. =D YAY!! Well, here are 10 of them, and caryn and gaik sim are supposed to choose the nicest one for me? haha, =)

weeeeeeeeeeeeee~
have fun in Thailand, baby. =)

Domo-kun says RAWR! ^^

I finally finished her present!!
Today's like exactly 5 months belated ad. lol. -.-
Fuh, teruk betul saya.
Ooooops, supposed to be studying.
Caryn, don't read my blog till i give you the book later. XD

Perhaps it is a little too late.
But I am officially banned from the computerrrrrrrrrrr.
Why? Because Winnie The Pooh said so. =P

Now I know why my bro wanted a superbike so badly. Today was the first time i actually rode one. As a passenger, of course. My bro was on full gear; full-faced helmet, gloves, jacket and all. Me? slippers and t-shirt. =) I was curious of how it would feel like, and yeap I got first-hand experience. On the bike, your like the king of the roads. All the other bikes are just 'kap chais' and not a match for you. The green eyes stared. The spotlight was on you. There was glory and triumph in your seat. Speed is a joke then. Long journeys were halved. The wind was blowing like crazy and all I had to hold on to was.. my brother. -.- He's thin like 'papan' and i did not dare to put my weight on him. Hence, i had quite an uncomfortable ride trying to support my own weight when the wind was blowing away so madly it was pushing your whole body down. That anticipating feeling at the traffic light. Your machine waiting to roar. fuh~ damn cool.

So close - Jon McLaughlin

You're in my arms, and all the world is calm
The music playing on for only two
So close together and when I'm with you
So close to feeling alive

A life goes by, romantic dreams will stop
So I bid mine goodbye and never knew
So close was waiting, waiting here with you
And now forever I know, all that I wanted to hold you so close

So close to reaching that famous happy end
Almost believing this was not pretend
Now you're beside me, and look how far we've come
So far we are so close

Oh, how could I face the faceless days
If I should lose you now?

We're so close to reaching that famous happy end
And almost believing this was not pretend
Let's go on dreaming for we know we are

So close, so close and still so far

Pic by : Deviantart

Weeeee~ First day driving today. 3 hours practical but.. total time of driving oni bout.. almost 2 hours. XD hahaha, it was so cool weiii! =D like playing game like that.. just, ur life's at risk. well, mine's not. since mine is only in the circuit for now. not on the road yet. Manual car is so cool. It requires skill to drive, unlike auto. which i think it would be very easy, no? Well, my instructor is Danny. He looks like some gangster or something. I freaked out when i found out he was my instructor lol. Then Daniel told me he's actually a very cool guy. So, today i experienced firsthand that he is very cool. He's actually softspoken and LOVES to cook! wow. Very laidback and relaxing guy. Never panicked for once even when i stepped on the oil pedal like gila banyak. haha. weeeee~

Pic by : Deviantart

She drifted off in a light sleep that made her think back of whatever had happened in this past 5 months. The sun was up. Trees were swaying to and fro like the gentle caress of a mother. Her hands were resting on her book and her legs crossed in a comfortable way.

First, she thought of her girlfriends. Six of them. Each of them a treasure of life. Different and confident, held together by an invicible bond that sometimes threats to break off. Every one of them a beautiful individual but when brought together, might cause a little of a havoc. A large group never brings much trust. Some feels left out, some keeps to themselves, some tries their very best to hold on, some drifting off in a world of their own, some couldn't bring herself to care, some too busy to notice, some just.... gave up. What happened? Girls are complicated beings and she couldn't bring herself to understand the veil that covers it all. It is a complicated relationship, and if only a wave of the 'magic wand' would unravel it all.

Next, she thought of her family. A house full of laughter now only comprises of silence. This is a part of life, she told herself. The mother is busy struggling with her job, and now she has a sigh of relief when things turn out better than she expected. A silent prayer to God always helps. The father, as busy as usual, worked day and night only to lighten the financial burden of the family. The moments he has at home was spent helping the family with chores and perhaps a little time for himself with the sitcom. The eldest, far away from home is striving and excelling at what he does best. Being awesome. He longs to come home but work is pulling him back. The brother, again, busy with work and girlfriend. He might be a little less attached to the family.

She, herself is wrapped up in her own world. Busy with studies and friends. Barely spending time at home. Even when she is, nobody is at home. What happened to the never ending arguments and teasing between her siblings? She sighed and a tear rolled down her cheek without her realising. She turned to her right and hugged her doggie. The playfulness is long gone and will forever be missed. So little time spent together, meaningful events meant nothing when you can't spend it with your family.

Then, she thought of school. The schedule is so hectic she could barely breathe. Homeworks, extra classes, co-curricular activities, sports, everything is cramming down this year. THE year to determine your future. She spends more time in school than at home. And she longs for the comfort of her bed. She clings closer to her doggie just for a sense of home. Sometimes she feels that it is too much but this is high school life and, she would have to do her best. This is what she has to go through. There are people who are more unlucky than herself and she should be grateful.

She thought of him.. And she smiled.

Starting : Mission Impossible.

Yeahhh. I can do it!

If this is self-pitying, then fine. I am self-pitying.
I hate this kind of act, but since everybody else is doing it, I'm doing it too.

WHAT THE HELL IS WRONGGGGGGGGGGG?~?!?!?!?!?!?!??!
haih.. I am truly disapppointed..
it's like you don't understand me anymore.
yes, I may be ridiculous most of the times, but isn't it out of love?
you may say things that don't matter much to you,
but to me, it hurts like crap.
yes again, blame me for being hyper sensitive.
but this is how i am when im with you.
I care.

haihhhhhhhhh.. dowan type ad la. dam stupid crap la self pitying. i hate this. -.-

my birthday is coming! ahhhhh. XD

poster credits to my awesome bro, Calvin Cheah. =)

It's this Tuesday!! Holy crap, after all the planning and practice and rehearsal and everything, it's actually gonna happen in two days. lol.. haihhh. I'm damn worried. I'm damn nervous. I just want everything to run smoothly and get it over with. Yes, Jeff, we can do it!! thanks for everything. What's this whole concert thing about eh? It's just a must do for SPM Music candidates.. haih. i regret ad la.. so damn lazy so ma huan so crap la. =( but, still gotta live with it right. i chose this in the first place. so yea.. haha. this concert.. well, the Jambulians are gonna perform. classical, hip hop, r n b, rock, jazz, u name it, u get it. Anyone from SMKBJ can come. I'm not too sure bout outsiders though?

I am utterly bored and I am cam-whoring. =)
This is my first time. lol, and I hope it doesn't happen again.
Note : Don't puke k?

i want you to hold me like you did yesterday. ♥

yeap, that's me studying Physics. lol, hello!! I'm finally blogging again.. haih, and why is that? that's cuz today is the dawn of the holidays! Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~~ but then, i can sense a lot of work to do this holidays.. again. man, sometimes i feel like, when am i ever gonna get a break? okay wait, now. now's a good time, my brain is at peace.. i'm feeling so sleepy but my bed's like shit now.. hence, i am here. today, ujian kemajuan 1 ended!! yayyyy~ last paper was bio. =D aduh, this test could've been a piece of cake. IF only i had started studying earlier. blek~ i say that everytime la haiyo.. but then this time it's really like, no time, no time. everybody's so busy.. there's all the concert stuffs, and then there's senamrobik. ughh.. x.x oh yea, we won naib johan! =D which is, quite surprising actually.. well, our hard work paid off. good job, girls! =)

Anyways, there's a lot of new stuffs going around me right now.

• New puppyyyyy! ^^ Ain't he adorable? =D His name is Puffy. he's a poodle. well, i thought all poodles are ugly and stuff, but he's not! he's just soooooo cute. hehe. =) well, he's not mine though. he's my bro's dog. my bro's gf's to be exact. but he's currently living in my house, directly outside my room heehee. so I get to play with him!! blek~~ he's smaller than my soft toys lol. i don't know how my bro's honna train him though.. and i know i just can't train a dog. but right now, he's on my lap licking me. =D aaa so ticklish. xD

• and this is my room, before a tornado ran through it and blew everything away. yes i know it's already messy before, but..
  

.....yeap, how am i gonna sleep tonight?... wait for it....
ta-daaaa! my mum's doing some repainting and my room's involved. lol, i wanna change the colour.. but it didnt seem suitable, plus must save cost and all.. so.. yeah. i had to pack out all my stuffs so that it wont kena paint or what. and i realized that i have alotttt of books.haiiizz.. my chaotic house..

• my mum is switching jobs. she served her one month notice and is starting to work in a new company in a week's time. and it's in seberang perai. x.x yes, she's excited bout it and all. but also nervous at the same time. ohmygod puffyyy willu let me ntype? ish. then comes the issue of my transport home and stuffs. haihhh. my bro pulak, working with my uncle in KL now. trying out a newfieldiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiuu3. warghhh puffyyy!!!my bro is trying out marketing. i hope he enjoys it. =)

• concert is in less than 2 weeks!! i can't wait till it's over.. =( Jeff's been real cranky and pissed off with our performers and ajks.. pressure by teacher and that look she's always giving us.. gosh, come on. there's only 2 of us, how much can we do?

• yes mun, i finally read your post. hahaha, after a month i think? yes i like it too. let me post a bit of those notes here. you guys can read more of it in mun's blog. hahaha!
  

A woman.

If you kiss her, you are not a gentleman
If you don't, you are not a man

If you are jealous, she says it's bad
If you don't , she thinks you do not love her

If you talk, she wants you to listen
If you listen, she wants you to talk

baby, when are you coming back from floorball?